LOST FRIEND...

It felt awesome!!! when I completed revolution 2020...,the feeling was different!! very different!! As my mind was beaming with joy a voice roared from inside no rakhi u always used to feel this way!!!  I tried to remember when I used to feel this way. THE VOICE  roared last year !!!! u Idiot how can u forget it! have u forgotten yourself??? Dont u remember the fact that u{me} used to be in the book world???" MY heart skipped a beat ,yes there I  went back down the memory lane. MY life had taken an important turn since 21 october 2010, reason being I had lost a friend. When I  say friend not really a friend.. We never used to speak much nor mingle with each other, yet one thing I felt that could have made us great friends was a common passion. We both loved reading books. One might ask" so what?? There are so many who love to read books" But according to my analysis unlike many When  I start reading I forget the world, and turn into one of the character and dont give a damn about my surroundings, which others found pretty amusing or rather dumb. But i could  see that in my lost friend:'(. So the reason why  life had taken an important turn on that day was after that day, I never felt like reading a book,while most of my friends started reading a book as a tribute to him. Few weeks later when I went to the library I felt hmmm....I have no words to describe..{how I felt}and i came out without borrowing a book, later after a week I found out that my library card was missing and never got one done for long ,till end of the year as a token of remembrance or rather for a book review, but never read the book borrowed  from  that card..Later during a threeeeee month long vacation read a few books but just to kill boredom,never for passion..now after a longggggg longggg time read a book for passion or love towards the book, and  felt like soul in me coming back and me becoming the same old person.That was The feeling which i thought was different, well now as I have found my  lost soul with me, the question haunting  my mind is will my soul remain with me  forever???????????..........